I gained allot of weight lately but I think its attractive. I am not back to 200 pounds but I am 180 and it looks ok on me. I need to tone it up but I will.
This one guy, that I thought was so sexy told me he wanted to be with me then he saw my new pictures and changed his mind.
Ok, well my birthday is coming up and what till do and you may ask what I want. I would love more slaves to worship the ground I walk on, love to be a mother eventually, marriage, boyfriend, or a new King Size bed.
Ok, let me break it down, right now I am at a great guys house. He is bald, tall, got a sexy ass and is cool. He works for himself. He will never do a video with me, (I asked). I am out in the country just me, him and his dog. Tristian is off the chain in some ways. He complains on stuff but he cool either way. He reminds me of that rich guy on tv the one that says “you fired”
He reminds me of Brad a little but not the immature version. He is also not bragging about other girls or tgirls while he is with me. I am at his house looking like a Chia pet. I go home tomorrow which is Sunday Jan 22.
He drops people like changing clothes. I was supposed to stay till Monday but I think he is getting tired of me. He says no, but who knows if he is tired of me or not.
My ex lives near Indiana and he is going back to school to get another degree, this is the guy that breaks up with me every weekend we start talking.
My other ex, the guy that sent me home from the drag racing championship lives near Kittaning, PA
I will be the shemale transsexual for Ford City PA. I don’t think I will have much competitions. LOL
Well I had so much fun New Years. I did not meet any guys on New Years day, but I had a great time. We went to a club in Jackson. It was cool, more like a pool hall.
My friend Felicia is off the chain. She and I just sat and talked and enjoyed the music and watched television, then some other girls from Bolton, MS showed up.
I really enjoyed my time in Mississippi. There was this hot white cop outside and I wanted him more than anyone at the bar. Ok most the guys in the bar were black and some were fine as hell, but they did not even give me a look. I had my red wig on and no one gave me any problems. Everyone could not believe how good I look like a girl. I am like wow, maybe I should stay thick.
I had dinner with my friend Amy, and she is so cool herself. She is like girl, you look good now. Mississippi people are so shocked on how I looked. I loved drying my Mitsubishi 1996 Eclipse.
I got with a rapper in Jackson. He was pretty cool, just a little too oral for me. You know I am not that big on oral. Now if a guy just does to tease me then fucks me, we are all good, but he was so into things more than me.
I really can’t wait to move. I am so so excited. I want to have my own shower, my own place, privacy. I will be good to move around and do as I please. Its all utilities furnished. I am so so happy.
I know some people will miss me here but not that many people in Philadelphia will miss me. I have kind went crazy being in this area and I developed allot of hatred for some people. I never want to come back to Philadelphia. I do want to go to Angela’s parties cause she has been so good, but I do not want to go to Philadelphia the city.
I mean I only made one really good friend here. Everyone else say they are good friends but they are to an extent. My CD friend Vicki is the only person that would give her all to make sure her friends and loved ones are safe. Everyone else talks and gives advice, helps with financial support but really don’t open their doors.
Its not their faults though. Its the world that has them afraid of certain people in society. I am truly supposed to take care of myself regardless.
I hope I can make my dreams come true in the new area I move to. If I can’t make my dreams come true at least maybe find happiness. I have two guys I dated there and they have issues with my life style and their relationships with me and their relatives so I am mostly on my own, but do know some tgirls out there.
I don’t want to talk allot to people in Philadelphia the first year I am there. I don’t don’t have Philadelphia people, just the area sends me so many bad vibes. I should have known that since I don’t even like the city party of Jackson, why would I like the city part of Philadelphia.
Well I don’t think there will be an X Mas this time. I will say it will be nothing but drama. I am so tired of drama. I am serious. I love to be loved and trusted, but this is whats happening so far.
My dad said he had a car for me. He got me a Mercury convertible that was his. Now he says its a Mitsubishi Eclipse convertible. I have never had a car like that and cant wait.
Rice has been good lately. I will say he is trying to make this friendship work and he wants me to be happy. Its weird but I do miss him and when I hear from him he makes me smile mostly.
I had got this apartment or well room to rent but 2 girls and I got into it. I mean really, they all like not concerned that I got a check from my parents and they could not find it. I am glad I did not move in with them, come to find out its like a drug traid going on in that building late at night. I am not trying to live a New Jack City.
Part 2, I got a landlord seems nice, that did not do a credit check so I was so so happy. Well then you look up and I don’t want to pay 925 for the place so I want to cancel so the law states if you go against a contract then you loose your deposit. So I will use it for some place, plus he only does month to Month.
Well I get to see UPS man more often. I like him so so much. He told me he “Loves Me” . I usually get too excited but not this time. I have to be calm. He takes lots of patience If I move to fast he will leave me again and I don’t want that. He not my boyfriend yet, but he does want access to the Vicki Cakes. LOL
Well I went to Atlanta to stay with Mr Airport man and it did not work out. He just too too pushy. This is about me and he tells me what I can’t do and eat. It pisses me off.
So then i come to Houston, so I can see my old friend Christy. She is so sweet and then we have problems cause I am all about me here too. Yall know I can be a bitch. A demanding Bitch I am. Rice got full support from my family and friends after this trip. They understand what he go through with me.
Brad is pissing me off. Then he just got him a new truck. Good for him, but he still contacting me to hit me and go back to someone else. i am not his piece of ass. He is too big an ass hole to ever fuck again. I miss his sex in some ways, but I am so past it.
Then he contacted me and told me he had a 4 some with 3 other tgirls. I am like what the fuck would you tell your ex that for. He and I are not that close. I hate him in so many ways. I love him, but I have a form of hate towards him. I can’t stand him.
Houston got me 1 guy. He was so good. Ron was off the chain. His dick was huge, he was a total gentleman. He took me to a very nice room at the Hilton, “Hello” and he gave me the most passion ever. He desires was about turning me on. He made me scream louder in four play than any man I ever dated, but juicy booty. Now Juicy Booty got it going on
Since I been in Houston, Rice has called and checked on me everyday. He still thinks I will accuse him of rape if we ever had sex. That is so stupid. I only do things crazy when he hurts me. Sometimes I wonder is he hurting me and I don’t know it. Thats why I back off from him so much. His way of being affraid is like a sign he is doing something I would not like.
This thanks giving I am doing Chicken from Boston Market and doing it alone.
I want to go to Pittsburgh or Maryland. Maybe I should do it, that day. I will see what happens. Wish me luck.
Happy Thanksgiving
I made a new friend, she is so nice. She is in the adult industry, but she has a great personality
You can find her online
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She is just a tgirl trying to find a way to market herself. If you want to help her, give her a email her mistresssoleli.com@gmail.com ask for Mistress Soleli
She is a wonderful person.
Her personality is great. Now if you are interested in getting into adult work, send her your picture and information. If you want her to be in one of your videos or do pictures also send her an email about that.
Well here is what I wore the first Halloween party. I had such a great time. I wish more people was there but it was pretty crowded.
Ok I went to so many parties
This below is the picture from Angelas Laptop Lounge Halloween party and here are some more from there
I also went to the Henry David Ball. I loved it. It was great. Its every Halloween in Philadelphia, PA. Its the one party where strait, gay, transsexual and others come together and party. No judgement at all. Its a wild wild party.
I had so so much fun. I hope some of my fans come out next year.
I wonder about love these days. I dream of turning over and someone is there, but that person really needs to be true. There are flaws in most men I have dated. I need something different. Someone that does not care about others feelings.
I want to need someone stronger than me, yet never uses his strength against me. I will kiss and be made love to. I feel so weak lately. I can have almost anything I want but yet I want love and that want is destroying me. I blame Philadelphia and the men I have dated, yet its me.
I am going away still and I am going to somewhere I can afford and I will be on my feet again, and this time no one will make me weak.
