I still want to move. I mean things are not major upsetting since I got the new medicine. I still need to move.
I don’t have but 1 friend here and he is married so that will not go that far. I need someone for emergencies that can help me. My neighbors talk to me but its neighborly.
I miss the fun I used to have dressing up for you guys. There were days I would feel so happy and dress up for you and make videos for you.
I loved it.
I am on one of my really old computers today and it makes me think looking at these old photos of how freaky and sexual I was. I need a bigger place so I can roam and do things I want to do.
Tia and I are talking again. I have not heard from Infiniti. She was saying medicare is paying for operations but she does not have medicare and it takes a long time to get it. She has insurance but does not want to go to court to get her insurance company to pay for it.
I am kind of pushy and they are kind of set in their ways. Tia
Tia is so hard headed and this guy that likes me she constantly sees them online and wants to call me and say he is online hitting on other girls. That is not her business and I am not in a relationship, we are just close friends.
Now she is right about some guys but no one is right all the time
Infiniti is a little mad at me cause I saw a guy that was 6’5 and he was perfect for her. He thinks I am a little too slutty for him. Actually allot of guys think that. They are not smart enough to come to my blog and realize thats just a freaky side of me. I am really old school in other ways.
Regardless of talking to my friends I hopoe they both find happiness
I have a few friends and its hard for them to help me right now cause most are unemployed and barely surviving themselves and no one cosigns for anyone anymore. I mean that ended in the 90s.
There is one guy thats has cared about me for 2 years now but he had some issues with me cause of my studies and my beliefs but now he he wants to be more understanding but he is not rich. I don’t know what will happen in the end.
Allot of people said why can’t I move in with Tia but for some reason, I am allergic at her place. I am not major allergic to animals but some yes. It makes no sense.
I do not have a boyfriend yet. I do have someone I care about so much but it could be another heart breaker.
I hope you all are doing better than me.
I am glad someone to finally helped me around here. I still don’t want to stay in the area, but good to have a friend. Lots of people contact me near here but they only want sex to help me.
Also he is a mechanic and carpenter. He is a jack of all trades
I wish I had more friends like that. Just friends that will be there in very important situations.
I got another speeding ticket and its bad news for me cause my points are already low in the state of PA. They might to suspend my license for 3 months. I think that is a stupid rule but PA believes it keeps drivers safe. I so want to leave this tate. I can’t stand it here.
I will only be in Philly for one day. So that means it will be little time to see anyone. I have to go there for the program and then go home come my funds are so limited. I know it all sucks to me as well.
I am going to have to leave here Thursday morning 7/10/2014 round 1 or 2 am and then make it here for 7 am cause I have an appointment at 10. I know that sucks. My sleep is off anyway. Then I go to the hotel in King of Prussia and then go home.
I really had it hard last week and going to talk to someone on the 15. I don’t know why its getting so bad this summer. I hope I eventually move and things get better.
A guy told me the other day that its even worse than I can imagine. He is mixed with black and he said even he has issues. He said its a couple of mixed people around here. He is Cajun.
I just want to be happy. When I say happy I don’t mean the picket fence cause that would get boring. LOL
I mean I want to be like content. I want to comfortable.
I did not know I knew another guy around here also. Plus some guys from Kittanning or contacting me. The thing is everyone that contacts me likes me sexually and I don’t want to be that tgirl you know what I mean.
I want to be a friend first. I am sick of always using my body to survive in the world. That gets old and my body can not take as much as it did when I was young.
I know its weird when I talk about the witch stuff but I do witchcraft and even did some dark magic. In my heart I don’t want to hurt people, but it seems my spells are powerful cause I do them and things do change. The only thing is sometimes I feel that people do the same to me at times.
The point of this is to say what I like and what I don’t like. I will see I am not a top but sometimes I do like doing a guy if he really cute and masculine. Now I could do a slave and be a dominatrix but then allot of them get in to shitting. Talking about it is one thing and doing phonesex I will say anything. Check it out. LOL
I talk to guys about domination but there is a time and place for all that. Sometimes I can deal with that but living here I get these major headaches.
I really want to move. I know I keep saying that but I am not happy here. I need a place on days I can lay in bed and not worry about dust dripping on me.
He is a great blogger and his stuff is very sexual
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I been here for 2 years now. and its did get better for a minute but I still want to move. I would love to have more space. I am over crowded in a one bedroom and then its not totally u p to my happiness standards. I am blessed to have a p lace to live and I appreciate that but when a better opportunity comes I will jump on it so fast. I don’t even think the US is for me anymore. I am serious. I do like the fact their are allot of freedoms and the net is not so high like other countries but man this place makes me want to kill myself. Not just where I live but the unhappiness around me. I misss the south but I have no rights down there and can’t get hormone treatment. Its no winning for loosing. I have tears coming out my eyes daily cause I am tired and fed up.
I pray to the Gods they give me the ability to move away from here, far away