I got another speeding ticket and its bad news for me cause my points are already low in the state of PA. They might to suspend my license for 3 months. I think that is a stupid rule but PA believes it keeps drivers safe. I so want to leave this tate. I can’t stand it here.
I will only be in Philly for one day. So that means it will be little time to see anyone. I have to go there for the program and then go home come my funds are so limited. I know it all sucks to me as well.
I am going to have to leave here Thursday morning 7/10/2014 round 1 or 2 am and then make it here for 7 am cause I have an appointment at 10. I know that sucks. My sleep is off anyway. Then I go to the hotel in King of Prussia and then go home.
I really had it hard last week and going to talk to someone on the 15. I don’t know why its getting so bad this summer. I hope I eventually move and things get better.
A guy told me the other day that its even worse than I can imagine. He is mixed with black and he said even he has issues. He said its a couple of mixed people around here. He is Cajun.
I just want to be happy. When I say happy I don’t mean the picket fence cause that would get boring. LOL
I mean I want to be like content. I want to comfortable.
I did not know I knew another guy around here also. Plus some guys from Kittanning or contacting me. The thing is everyone that contacts me likes me sexually and I don’t want to be that tgirl you know what I mean.
I want to be a friend first. I am sick of always using my body to survive in the world. That gets old and my body can not take as much as it did when I was young.
I know its weird when I talk about the witch stuff but I do witchcraft and even did some dark magic. In my heart I don’t want to hurt people, but it seems my spells are powerful cause I do them and things do change. The only thing is sometimes I feel that people do the same to me at times.
The point of this is to say what I like and what I don’t like. I will see I am not a top but sometimes I do like doing a guy if he really cute and masculine. Now I could do a slave and be a dominatrix but then allot of them get in to shitting. Talking about it is one thing and doing phonesex I will say anything. Check it out. LOL
I talk to guys about domination but there is a time and place for all that. Sometimes I can deal with that but living here I get these major headaches.
I really want to move. I know I keep saying that but I am not happy here. I need a place on days I can lay in bed and not worry about dust dripping on me.
I been here for 2 years now. and its did get better for a minute but I still want to move. I would love to have more space. I am over crowded in a one bedroom and then its not totally u p to my happiness standards. I am blessed to have a p lace to live and I appreciate that but when a better opportunity comes I will jump on it so fast. I don’t even think the US is for me anymore. I am serious. I do like the fact their are allot of freedoms and the net is not so high like other countries but man this place makes me want to kill myself. Not just where I live but the unhappiness around me. I misss the south but I have no rights down there and can’t get hormone treatment. Its no winning for loosing. I have tears coming out my eyes daily cause I am tired and fed up.
I pray to the Gods they give me the ability to move away from here, far away
Ok now this is the nastiest porn I ever seen. I see women pissing and shitting on each other and rubbing it all over their bodies. I can not believe this is popular. That is one site I just cant do. It would make great money but I think I will just have to struggle