I like slaves to spoil me yes. That is very true. I do not escort though. Some guys ask this, but I don’t escort. I do date and get to know people.
I went to the tgirl party after I left Mississippi and I was a big fat blob. No guys hit on me and I was not dressed sexy cause I got out late. I hope I got to loose some weight and dress sexy.
I am at 254 pounds right now. I was 238 when I left. I can’t believe I ate that much. O well. I got to work out and loose some weight. Wish me luck. I wish I could stay away from beef. I know beef is my downfall.
Hello, I hope everyone has been ok.
I went home this past week to see my family in Mississippi. Did you I tell you about that. I have to strap my tits down and be a boy to see my family. O my gosh my tits hurt so bad. I stayed with a friend that I went to High School with. She was very nice. I saw my mom, grandmother, brothers and it was all ok. You still could see my tits a little bit. Gosh I wish my family would accept me like other families accept their transgender children. My family is just religious.
Well I hope one day to have my own family and friends, locally.
Hey everybody. Its a new month. I might be going to Mississippi this month. I have not visited in 5 years. I don’t want to visit now. I don’t like having to go see my family. I have to hide I am a tgirl when I visit my family. They don’t like me as a tgirl. I have to also tie down my tits. Wish me luck on my trip. I most likely am going for Mothers Day.
There is a tgirl party on the 20th. I would love to go but I can’t afford it. O well, looks like I will not be making it.
I was sick last week. I was throwing up all kinds of food. I don’t know what was wrong with me. I need to eat better. I know I have told you all that but I really do. I am still yet to eat as I should. I purchased me some salad mix and tomatoes. Now the only thing I forgot was cucumbers. I can’t believe I forgot them.
I am much better and I will do my best not to let myself get like this again.
Yes, I am in bed allot. I just don’t feel like dealing with the world a little. I am getting up and eating and washing dishes but there are other things to do and I have not done them yet. Gosh I really need to get on the ball and get my ass up and exercise a little. I don’t feel like walking so I should get up and dance around. I am only getting fatter. I have to get back to the way I was. I want to be happy again.
Glad I went out last night but it did hot help. This afternoon all I wanted was some pork skins. See food is like a trigger for me. I looked on the over eaters website and its Christian based. I don’t know if I could deal with that. I will have to think about it.
Reading in bed though. I am reading more. The only way to finish my book is to read books by others. I am hoping that helps me allot. I will see what happens.
I went to a tgirl dinner. I know what you thinking. Gosh I am always going somewhere with food. The thing is, I got out the house. That is a good thing. I also went to Walmart on a Saturday.
The Dinner was ok, but the conversation was great. I really had a nice time talking to the girls. Its good to talk to others like me. It makes me feel good.
I been planing with myself allot more since I gained weight. I guess I am in need of sex. I will have to deal with it. Sex is over rated.
I don’t know whats wrong with me, but my motivation sucks and I have very little determination. I really got to get back to doing things and taking better care of myself. Its really sad that I am going through all these problems. Sometimes I wish I had never been born and life would be so much better. Either way I was born and I have to deal with my life as it is now.
I am just tired of survival a little. I wish I had this big house with allot of volunteer slaves to worship me but it does not work out like that. i have to work for everything I get and sometimes that’s just does not work for me.
I am still having food problems. I have not been to the over eaters group yet. Its hard to go to meetings when I have to be at home working to pay bills. I have the car note, the cable, rent, credit cards. I like having all these things. They make me happy. Sometimes I wish I had a guy to help me sometimes. It would be so nice to just relax and focus on my self.
I know there is no Prince Charming for me, but at least a financial secure guy that would help me out as much as he could. I will keep you all up to date.
I have a friend that is helping me work on my book. The only problem there is too much sex in the book and it might not be able to hit the shelves. Its not about me, its about a young biological girl that is looking for love in all the wrong places.