I know you might not believe this, but ever since Trump got in office money has been tight. I am not getting that many phonesex calls. Everyone said he is gonna bring money back to the USA but seems he just want to make problems with programs in the USA.
I don’t know why my customers are barely calling these days but I know since he has been in office its been really really slow.
I been down lately. I get like that really bad 2 to 3 days a week. I wish I could be happy all the time, but it does not work out that way. I don’t want to end it all or anything like that but I am so sick of my situation.
I need to be thankful for having a place to live, food to eat, and a car to drive. I just don’t feel happy at all. I will fight it though. Gosh I just want to be happy again.
I like slaves to spoil me yes. That is very true. I do not escort though. Some guys ask this, but I don’t escort. I do date and get to know people.
I went to the tgirl party after I left Mississippi and I was a big fat blob. No guys hit on me and I was not dressed sexy cause I got out late. I hope I got to loose some weight and dress sexy.
I am at 254 pounds right now. I was 238 when I left. I can’t believe I ate that much. O well. I got to work out and loose some weight. Wish me luck. I wish I could stay away from beef. I know beef is my downfall.
Hello, I hope everyone has been ok.
I went home this past week to see my family in Mississippi. Did you I tell you about that. I have to strap my tits down and be a boy to see my family. O my gosh my tits hurt so bad. I stayed with a friend that I went to High School with. She was very nice. I saw my mom, grandmother, brothers and it was all ok. You still could see my tits a little bit. Gosh I wish my family would accept me like other families accept their transgender children. My family is just religious.
Well I hope one day to have my own family and friends, locally.
Hey everybody. Its a new month. I might be going to Mississippi this month. I have not visited in 5 years. I don’t want to visit now. I don’t like having to go see my family. I have to hide I am a tgirl when I visit my family. They don’t like me as a tgirl. I have to also tie down my tits. Wish me luck on my trip. I most likely am going for Mothers Day.
There is a tgirl party on the 20th. I would love to go but I can’t afford it. O well, looks like I will not be making it.
I was sick last week. I was throwing up all kinds of food. I don’t know what was wrong with me. I need to eat better. I know I have told you all that but I really do. I am still yet to eat as I should. I purchased me some salad mix and tomatoes. Now the only thing I forgot was cucumbers. I can’t believe I forgot them.
I am much better and I will do my best not to let myself get like this again.
Yes, I am in bed allot. I just don’t feel like dealing with the world a little. I am getting up and eating and washing dishes but there are other things to do and I have not done them yet. Gosh I really need to get on the ball and get my ass up and exercise a little. I don’t feel like walking so I should get up and dance around. I am only getting fatter. I have to get back to the way I was. I want to be happy again.
Glad I went out last night but it did hot help. This afternoon all I wanted was some pork skins. See food is like a trigger for me. I looked on the over eaters website and its Christian based. I don’t know if I could deal with that. I will have to think about it.
Reading in bed though. I am reading more. The only way to finish my book is to read books by others. I am hoping that helps me allot. I will see what happens.
I went to a tgirl dinner. I know what you thinking. Gosh I am always going somewhere with food. The thing is, I got out the house. That is a good thing. I also went to Walmart on a Saturday.
The Dinner was ok, but the conversation was great. I really had a nice time talking to the girls. Its good to talk to others like me. It makes me feel good.
I been planing with myself allot more since I gained weight. I guess I am in need of sex. I will have to deal with it. Sex is over rated.